Thankful Day 7

Today I am thankful for having the ability to send my children to school. I know they are young and I agree that they are young but a little time away from me with other children is a beautiful thing. They are thriving at their preschool. I am thriving because of their preschool. They are blessed with amazing, God fearing, God loving teachers. These teachers truly LOVE being there; it comes across though the way they greet the children, they way the love on them, the way that my kids love being there. Parker has never even cried when I have left him (which makes a mama happy and sad). They get to learn new songs, make new friends, learn how to listen to other adults and I get to have time to work, go to dr appts, get my nails done, go to the grocery store, clean...you get the idea. Conner's teachers are nothing short of amazing. He comes home telling me all kinds of things he learned in Science, what his friends are doing. He is involved in their lives; he knows today is Ms. Tiffany's birthday and he's excited about it. Parker's teachers are also amazing. They are truly the best at introducing what 'school' is for these little ones. The best thing we have done for these boys (besides give them each other) is putting them at this school. For that, I'm thankful.

Thankful Day 3

Nov 3: Today, I am thankful for my babies and for the gift of motherhood. I never thought that being a mama would be as hard as it is, nor did I ever think the rewards would be so great. It's the little moments that really matter; the moments when you've had a wretched day, the house is trashed, they kids have done nothing but fight and one kids hugs your legs and says "i miss you mommy (as if I've left that day)" and the other says, " I luvs you mommy". It's worth it. Every single second. I thank God every single day for my kids. I am so blessed to be their mama and I'm so thankful that we are adding a third to our chaos.

Thankful day 1 and some updates...or lack of...

Last year in November, I participated in the Thankful November on FB. This year I'm doing it but here, on my blog, where I can go back and read it,  instead of on fb. I don't need to be thankful for FB to see it, I just need to be thankful for me to see it (and the 4 readers that I have). Before I give you the 'update' from the specialist, I want to do Nov 1,2 thankful.

First and foremost I am thankful for my Lord and Savior. Even in spite of me, he still loves me and carries me when I need it. I am lifted up and have been prayed for this entire pregnancy and for that I am thankful. I am so, so thankful.

Day 2: I am thankful for Josh. Sure, we have our ups and downs but at the end of the day when our house goes quiet and the boys are still and sleeping, it's just me and him. I love him to the pits of my core and I can not imagine living this life without him helping me through. Without him, I would only be half and not whole.


Now for the (stupid) update. Every time I go to a dr, I get something different.  The ob thinks I have 2 placentas...the specialist said (last time) that I had an anterior placenta, yesterday they said I had a posterior placenta that was funual, meaning it wraps around the uterus. The dr asked if I had a c-section or d&c (seriously, is that NOT in my chart?!) and I told him I did but 5 years ago and prior to 2 babies. He said that he still thinks it's a scar tissue but that it wouldn't be from that. I'm so confused and frustrated. The tech did turn on the 4d yesterday and I will say that I think this baby is going to look like Conner. He has the same nose as both of the boys and it looks like he has Conner's mouth/lips instead of Parker's. That was a fun little moment. I just want it to be feb/march so I'm done w/pregnancy...sort of. I love feeling these teeny tiny baby kicks. It's my favorite. 

21w.