>Update on me

>Today I had my 6 week postpartum appointment. I brought Parker with me so that Dr. Lawrence could see him; I know that they love to see the babies they care for over a 9 month span and they really love to see the babies they deliver. They gushed over Parker and he smiled at all of the nurses there. What a ham!

Dr. Lawrence asked me how I was doing and I was very honest. I told her that I'm very overwhelmed 95% of my day. I told her that I go from absolutely fine to annoyed and angry very quickly over really petty and stupid things. I do not have thoughts of harming myself or anyone else. I just think that 2 babies is a LOT; it's overwhelming to maintain everything, deal with no sleep because TWO kids are up multiple times and they are both really just babies. She recommended that I take a low dose anti-depressant to help me take the edge off. she said that they will help "even me out". SO, I agreed to the medication. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks. We discussed birth control options. Lord knows I don't want another one any time soon...if ever. I am going to get the mirena in 6 weeks (if I don't chicken out). Until then, I'm on the mini-pill so that I can continue to breast feed Parker. All in all a good appointment and I really love my OB.

Update on me

Today I had my 6 week postpartum appointment. I brought Parker with me so that Dr. Lawrence could see him; I know that they love to see the babies they care for over a 9 month span and they really love to see the babies they deliver. They gushed over Parker and he smiled at all of the nurses there. What a ham!

Dr. Lawrence asked me how I was doing and I was very honest. I told her that I'm very overwhelmed 95% of my day. I told her that I go from absolutely fine to annoyed and angry very quickly over really petty and stupid things. I do not have thoughts of harming myself or anyone else. I just think that 2 babies is a LOT; it's overwhelming to maintain everything, deal with no sleep because TWO kids are up multiple times and they are both really just babies. She recommended that I take a low dose anti-depressant to help me take the edge off. she said that they will help "even me out". SO, I agreed to the medication. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks. We discussed birth control options. Lord knows I don't want another one any time soon...if ever. I am going to get the mirena in 6 weeks (if I don't chicken out). Until then, I'm on the mini-pill so that I can continue to breast feed Parker. All in all a good appointment and I really love my OB.

>Favorite Things

>Conner's favorite things (aside from suckers because, really what almost 2 year old doesn't like a dum dum?)
First and foremost, he LOVES and I mean LOVES tractors. Actually, I don't know that love is a strong enough word. He has lots of toy tractors and loves to watch the real ones.




His second love...his water table and pool.



His third love is the water hose.


His favorite person...it's hard. He adores Parker and when Josh is home, he's all about Daddy and sometimes, he even likes his mama!
(thank you Victoria, for that mommy and me picture. I treasure them)

Favorite Things

Conner's favorite things (aside from suckers because, really what almost 2 year old doesn't like a dum dum?)
First and foremost, he LOVES and I mean LOVES tractors. Actually, I don't know that love is a strong enough word. He has lots of toy tractors and loves to watch the real ones.




His second love...his water table and pool.



His third love is the water hose.


His favorite person...it's hard. He adores Parker and when Josh is home, he's all about Daddy and sometimes, he even likes his mama!
(thank you Victoria, for that mommy and me picture. I treasure them)

>My Little Helper

>I decided that I would let Conner help me make sugar cookies the other day. It was very fun and he made a gigantic mess. He never ate a cookie after they came out of the oven, but he said, "mmmm" every time he had a mouth full of the batter. Smart boy.

My Little Helper

I decided that I would let Conner help me make sugar cookies the other day. It was very fun and he made a gigantic mess. He never ate a cookie after they came out of the oven, but he said, "mmmm" every time he had a mouth full of the batter. Smart boy.

>What can I say?

>I know I haven't been on here as much but I just don't know what to say. I have things I can talk about but let me assure you they are not interesting nor fun. I have a precious baby that thinks he needs to cry most of the day because he's tired but he refuses to sleep. I have a toddler that is outright defiant. I know part of it is his age and I think part of it is just jealousy. He always does things that he knows are not allowed when I'm nursing, changing or putting Parker to sleep. It's not fun; in fact it's frustrating and I could cry. I admit, I've yelled at him and I hate myself for it.

Want to here some of his antics? 1. find juice cup, take a "sip", spit said sip onto the dog, the couch, Parker's bouncy seat, Parker's playmat, the floor. 2. feed the dog any food that he asks for. 3. try to climb onto the stove. 4. just scream; temper tantrum scream when I say no. For those of you that think he does not know what he's doing, I'll be the first to tell you that you are wrong, he does. He's no dummy. At least he's cute.


Let's talk about my house (no picture for this one). It's trashed. Really. As I look around my living room, I see...a regular cup (that Conner HAD to have w/juice in it...he poured that out onto the rug), 2 laundry baskets full of clean folded clothes and sheets, lots of toys everywhere. The shorts that Conner won't wear today, sidewalk chalk, tractors,s Conner's shoes, the boppy, a sheet of stickers, Josh's flip flops. Every room in my house is messy. I finally got the guest room sheets clean and changed yesterday. I still need to finish cleaning up in there. Both of the boy's rooms need to be picked up as well as mine. I need to clean the bathrooms (all 3 of them). The kitchen is the only place that is decent. It's just a mess and I can not stand it but every time I start on something, someone needs something right now. I need to find my groove and I hope that happens soon.

I would love to discuss the postpartum body but Parker is in the swing fussing to get out. I'm going to put the moby on and hopefully that helps. Maybe I'll get to that next time.

What can I say?

I know I haven't been on here as much but I just don't know what to say. I have things I can talk about but let me assure you they are not interesting nor fun. I have a precious baby that thinks he needs to cry most of the day because he's tired but he refuses to sleep. I have a toddler that is outright defiant. I know part of it is his age and I think part of it is just jealousy. He always does things that he knows are not allowed when I'm nursing, changing or putting Parker to sleep. It's not fun; in fact it's frustrating and I could cry. I admit, I've yelled at him and I hate myself for it.

Want to here some of his antics? 1. find juice cup, take a "sip", spit said sip onto the dog, the couch, Parker's bouncy seat, Parker's playmat, the floor. 2. feed the dog any food that he asks for. 3. try to climb onto the stove. 4. just scream; temper tantrum scream when I say no. For those of you that think he does not know what he's doing, I'll be the first to tell you that you are wrong, he does. He's no dummy. At least he's cute.


Let's talk about my house (no picture for this one). It's trashed. Really. As I look around my living room, I see...a regular cup (that Conner HAD to have w/juice in it...he poured that out onto the rug), 2 laundry baskets full of clean folded clothes and sheets, lots of toys everywhere. The shorts that Conner won't wear today, sidewalk chalk, tractors,s Conner's shoes, the boppy, a sheet of stickers, Josh's flip flops. Every room in my house is messy. I finally got the guest room sheets clean and changed yesterday. I still need to finish cleaning up in there. Both of the boy's rooms need to be picked up as well as mine. I need to clean the bathrooms (all 3 of them). The kitchen is the only place that is decent. It's just a mess and I can not stand it but every time I start on something, someone needs something right now. I need to find my groove and I hope that happens soon.

I would love to discuss the postpartum body but Parker is in the swing fussing to get out. I'm going to put the moby on and hopefully that helps. Maybe I'll get to that next time.

>One Month

>One month ago (yesterday..day late, I know) God gave us Parker. He's such a sweet, laid back baby. He made my heart grow and I had no idea that I had any more room for MORE love but I did. Thank you Parker for being such a good baby. You're precious and I love you.
At one month Parker can roll from belly to back, can roll from back to side, SMILE, eat, poop and sleep. :)



Parker had his 4 week appt on Monday. He weighs 10lbs 5oz and is 20.75 inches long. A few weeks ago, I noticed that when he stuck his tongue out, it creased and looked like a heart. I mentioned it to Josh and he (of course) blew if off as though it was nothing and I was over reacting. Well, I asked Dr. Babu to look at his tongue and sure enough (mommy was right) the frendulum was too short and needed to be cut. I almost died. I wanted to throw up, but I didn't. She suggested that we go ahead and do the procedure; after all we were already there and it is better to do it early instead of waiting. Evidently, having a tight frendulum can cause speech problems and she was shocked that he was doing so well nursing and I had not had any problems. Conner was with me, so I took him out of the room during the procedure. I knew when they held Parker's head still because people on the other side of town could hear his screaming. It was not a pain scream, it was a pissed scream. Immediately after the procedure he nursed and has been doing great ever since. I did give him a dose of tylenol to help with discomfort. He has realized that he has more range of motion with his tongue and he has started to stick it out. Cute, huh? I just need to get that and his adorable smile on camera!

One Month

One month ago (yesterday..day late, I know) God gave us Parker. He's such a sweet, laid back baby. He made my heart grow and I had no idea that I had any more room for MORE love but I did. Thank you Parker for being such a good baby. You're precious and I love you.
At one month Parker can roll from belly to back, can roll from back to side, SMILE, eat, poop and sleep. :)



Parker had his 4 week appt on Monday. He weighs 10lbs 5oz and is 20.75 inches long. A few weeks ago, I noticed that when he stuck his tongue out, it creased and looked like a heart. I mentioned it to Josh and he (of course) blew if off as though it was nothing and I was over reacting. Well, I asked Dr. Babu to look at his tongue and sure enough (mommy was right) the frendulum was too short and needed to be cut. I almost died. I wanted to throw up, but I didn't. She suggested that we go ahead and do the procedure; after all we were already there and it is better to do it early instead of waiting. Evidently, having a tight frendulum can cause speech problems and she was shocked that he was doing so well nursing and I had not had any problems. Conner was with me, so I took him out of the room during the procedure. I knew when they held Parker's head still because people on the other side of town could hear his screaming. It was not a pain scream, it was a pissed scream. Immediately after the procedure he nursed and has been doing great ever since. I did give him a dose of tylenol to help with discomfort. He has realized that he has more range of motion with his tongue and he has started to stick it out. Cute, huh? I just need to get that and his adorable smile on camera!

>Catching up

>I have done quick little posts lately but there are still things I wanted to share that I just haven't had time to actually post so this will probably be a long one.

Right after Parker was born, Josh went out and bought a BIG kiddie pool. He thought it was great because he could get in there with Conner to play. I know that I don't usually EVER post pictures of Conner with his pacifier in his mouth but that first week...he wouldn't let it out of his site even to play.






Last weekend, we went to the aquarium. Both Josh and I thought that Conner would love it and he did but only for the first 45 minutes. He was really timid and didn't want to get near the glass of the tanks. He's shy like that. He would NOT even think of petting the sting rays at all. He kept saying "bye bye". Parker just slept. I brought the single stroller because Josh did not think Conner would sit in it and Parker would just ride. Thankfully, I had my wrap with me. That's were Parker stayed most of the time and guess who sat in the stroller??? Conner. Sometimes, mommas know and daddys don't. See how content Parker is in that wrap? Who can blame him?






Conner is VERY big into jumping these days. I will take the pillows off of the couch and he jumps on those like they are a trampoline. He jumps off of the last step, he jumps when he dances and if he gets the chance to jump off of something high he certainly does not miss the opportunity. Of course he wants to hold your hand. (Disclaimer...please don't mind Josh's clothing; he had just gotten home from work)





Outside time has gotten interesting with two babies. When it's not a million degrees we head outside to burn off some energy. I typically lay Parker in one of the strollers (he's always sleeping) so that he is (kind of) our of Conner's way. Sometimes, Conner tries to join Parker in the stroller. This morning, it was/is very overcast so we went straight outside after breakfast. Parker was OK for a little while. I put him in the stroller and Conner jumped into his side and demanded that we "go, go". We went for a very quick walk. Parker wasn't too thrilled with the idea of it. He only wanted to go to sleep but the stroller was not where he wanted to be. Needless to say, I carried P part of the way and pushed that double stroller. Thankfully, it's easy to steer.